Contributor | Lenah Mashiya
I was walking home one evening in the city. On my way back from taking a well-deserved and mind cleansing walk. A young gentleman bumped into me and asked “How much?” Of course the question is obvious, the man wants to know how much he would have to pay me as a prerequisite to have me for the night. I immediately reacted with unpleasant words as passionate cursing followed. My feminist compatriots and I have fought many years to gain the respect of men as a whole, so the question was inappropriate, especially when directed to a well-dressed and decent young lady such as myself. However, after the rage collapsed and remained in time. I began to question myself, “how much?” really, how much does it cost, how much will it take and when will be enough?
I wasn’t referring to the cost of my naked body on sheets belonging to a stranger, rather, I was questioning the habits of mortal man. When will enough really be enough? We are aware that growth is imperative to expansion, or was it the other way around? Needless-to-say, I have never come across a people that was ever satisfied, either with themselves, their government or with their surroundings. Happiness is always a job away or a relationship away or the most common, money away. People are always seeking something that they recognize on others and blindly disregard it within their own lives.
I have never been comfortable with seeking external factors as a contributing feature to my peace. I understood at a young age the power of simplicity, only because my thoughts were always in a pandemonium state and needed organising. However, with that said, I wasn’t always capable of saying the things I wanted to say, because the idea is that being alone meant you were lonely and will most likely end up with 13 cats in a dirty old house, that would be just as old as I would be. I had to change that. I had to reason with myself. There could no longer be too many voices in my head trying to get their way.
I am sure you are aware of the marketing principle called KISS, as simple as “Keeping-It-Simple-stupid”. In that case I must refer to the idea of living with only the bare minimum. The question that arises is, ‘is it going to be enough?’ -the qualification, the sex, the power, control and influence.
We have been told by all the companies how we need more; more food, more salt, more cars, more clothes and more of more, so that we can buy more with more money that we don’t actually have, to show more people (whom we don’t like), that we can attempt a financial suicide and survive without looking like we have less. So families struggle to celebrate the little bits in life that can easily be fabricated, but when true, such as love, can blow your mind away.
So I began to devour all that I needed to stay alive. I learned that my stomach is actually only as big as my fist that meant I had been feeding my minds craving all this time. I felt lighter and free, and as a contributing factor, I pictured the cliché self-empowering film, filled with meditation of staged out scenes of Chinese monks in the background. But that isn’t the purpose of this piece.
I have lived with thoughts that were contradictory, the one day I would enjoy horror films and due to a week of sleepless nights, I would have to reconsider those prospects. It means that I went through a life altering process, which I feel is important for the entire world to endure. Instead, we can be crumbled by debt or substances and return to them in the morning.
We have to learn to develop our brains to question everything we hear, from history to the visions of the future. I have met so many people who live life recklessly, as though the future is many centuries away, although that is true, the next moment is just as far away as your mind establishes. So, with that said, how much will be enough for you? How long will you continue making people happy when you see absolutely no value in your investment? How long will you wait upon doors to open before you construct your own? How much do you have to loan to pay off more loans you didn’t need to begin with? When will you look inside yourself to realise that you are the beginning of new vibrations?
Have you heard about the concept of energy? It has been written in many books, but the one that stands out the most for me is in the book called “the Secret” by Rhonda Byrne. It focuses on how you control everything that happens in your life considering only one factor; your opinion on the matter.
Anything and everything has a reaction after every action, positive or otherwise, it must be thought of in an optimistic manner, this is only if you want to avoid having a dull evening with old friends or hating your job. Energy is a large contributing factor.
We are at the stage where we realise that our environment is the only reason we can breathe, and so, of course marketing campaigns about “going green” begin to materialise. This is so that you can buy more products you do not need, in an attempt to save the earth while actually damaging it. While this piece isn’t about saving the world, it is about saving yourself. Now, I don’t have the answers to how the world could be, only because we are not handed a blue print of what makes a life worth living. But it is important to focus on yourself for once and be selfish with your time (it runs on irreversible decisions), so that next time when someone asks you “how much?”, you can say without hesitation, “I’ve had enough, thank you”, smile and walk away.